A letter for the disillusioned hearts 

I'm coming out of my phase of self-torment. I've spent a lot of time feeling stupid because I believed in meritocracy.

This is a letter for people who are feeling this way.

You didn't fall for the myth because you were foolish.

You believed it because you thought it would protect you. That if we worked hard, stayed in line, and endured long enough, it would pay off.

Then you entered the institutions. You got the jobs. You earned the titles. And what you found was not what you were promised. The systems you thought were built on fairness were actually built to extract. The rules were never neutral. The structure was never safe. And now you are in charge of sanitizing reality so that no one can see the rot that you see. 

That realization is not just disappointing. It’s disorienting. It corrodes how we see the world, how we see ourselves, and how we make sense of the sacrifices that got us here.

I recently attended a workshop that was meant for people who are feeling this way and needed a place to release their rage. 

I heard people name the hypocrisy they see around them. I believe them. I believe they are waking up. Many are no longer willing to sacrifice their health or values for institutions that never had their best interests in mind. That’s powerful.

That rage needs so much from you. It needs to be seen, felt, expressed, and alchemized. It's a lot. It's tough. Because if you ignore it, it will eat you. And if you don't harness it, it will scorch everything around you.

Real growth happens when you can stay in your discomfort

I think that that's why most people don't even try (until they are forced to). We know there's way too much lurking in our darkness. We'd rather not see. We'd rather caffeinate and numb ourselves and project our unresolved wounds on a Labubu. Or sports. 

Because who the fuck has the energy to deal with their demons in 2025?

I really want to honour that. Because I know how much work this was for me. I don't know if I would have gone through any of this if I needed to also fix my face from Monday to Friday.

You want to change the world? You want to get paid to be yourself? You want to escape the capitalist grind? 

Switching jobs is not enough. Taking the entrepreneurial leap is not going to save you.

BECAUSE WHEREVER YOU GO, THERE YOU ARE.

And for many of us, especially immigrants, first-gen folks, or anyone who fought hard just to have a chance, we are carrying the baggage of the stories that shaped us. Stories that told us hard work was the answer. Stories that equated pain with purpose. Stories that said we had to suffer to be worthy.

Those stories got you far...but they also got you in the current pickle you are in. 

And that’s not a personal failure. It’s a reflection of the generations before us who did what they had to do so we could even have this moment of questioning.

They survived systems of scarcity so that we could, eventually, break them. The point isn’t to perpetuate the struggle. The point is to honour the legacy by refusing to be consumed by it.

You are missing the emotional coding for the transformation

When survival and endurance is all you’ve known, it’s hard to imagine another way. We weren’t given the emotional coding to say, “I deserve ease. I deserve to thrive.”

We weren’t taught to position ourselves in a space where we expect wellness, where we say yes to joy without guilt. Yes, THIS IS TAUGHT. This is why I HATE the "pull yourself from your bootstraps" and any kind of language that puts it on the individual to rise up against the odds. Bitch, THERE'S A REASON WHY IT'S HARD. We have gaps. HUGE GAPS! And you want me to just "step out of my comfort zone"? STFU. 

This lack in our emotional coding will inevitably lead to two types of people:

• the ones that end up in situations where their gifts and skills are weaponized against them

• the ones that end up doing the weaponizing because they adopted the emotional codes of this sick society

I have a feeling that if you are reading this, you exist in the first category and you are terrified of ending up in the second one. 

So, it is not enough to quietly quit...it is not enough to build your hustle on the side while you wait for your opportunity to send that resignation letter...

As long as you carry that survival programming, you are walking around, completely exposed, because you do not understand how to harness your real power, the power that has nothing to do with your credentials and titles and your ability to present yourself as a professional.

And this is not a reason to be ashamed. This is a reason to get angry, and to get sharp. This is a reason to dream big and become ruthless. Be ruthless in protecting your light.

This is how I have use the Reiss Motivation Profile®. I've used it to understand what sovereignty and resistance looks like for me. Because what we are up against is far more insidious than having a bad boss, or having to punch in 40 hours of work (or more), or the malaise of making other people rich while our salaries are not enough to pay for the therapy that we need to remain functional enough to keep showing up because we need to fucking eat. 

It is so insidious that I won't even bother to describe it all, because there will be a moment that you realize it's everything. It's everywhere. Having that realization without a strong sense of self, without a strong inner compass can be devastating. 

You need that inner compass so you can keep your hope alive. 

Heck, you need that inner compass so you can FEEL ALIVE. 

I am so unserious about a lot of things these days, but this is the one thing I will not fuck with because my experience is not just about the disillusionment with the world of work. 

I was disillusioned with LIFE ITSELF. 

And everything I am doing on this page is coming from that experience. Our aliveness is SACRED. I am channelling my rage to protect this. In myself, and to teach others how to do that for themselves.  

You have to learn how to enjoy the in-between, because that could be where you stay the rest of your life

No matter where you are in your journey, I want you to know this:

I don't think the point is to escape the in-between as fast as possible.

Most of us look to self-help and therapy and self-knowledge because you want to be on the other side of the bridge as quickly as possible.

Maybe we are always doing this dance, until one day we don't have to. So YOU GOTTA LEARN HOW TO ENJOY THE DANCE! 

I'm in the in-between myself. Have I found my aliveness? Heck yes. But, I'm also aware that I've just begun dismantling my own programming that wanted to belong so badly in these corporate rooms, in the 46th floor, in the top 30 under 30 (I am smiling as I type this, because I cannot believe this shit used to matter to me) 

But that doesn't mean the I don't know joy. I know how to access it, and I know that it belongs to me and that no one can giveth or taketh it from me. That's why I feel equipped to handle the uncertainty. Joy is for brave people. Don't let anyone tell you that you are ridiculous for wanting it and for wanting ease.

Cynical people and stiff-upper-lip people are the real fools. LET THEM BE. Maybe when they see your transformation they'll see that the search is worthy. I am not interested in speaking to them, even though I was one of them.

I am speaking to the sliver of hope that is within you. The sliver of hope that even the most cynical person feels from time to time. That hope needs you to do the work.

Because that's what survival programming doesn't teach you. It doesn't teach you how to keep the hope alive, how to make it thrive. It only teaches you to align yourself with what is. That's what breeds the toughness and skepticism and cynicism. But that's not you. That's just a shell.

Survival programming doesn't teach you to explore, to venture, TO DARE. And I'm not saying that to hate on survival programming. For the longest time, that's all that most of us have been able to do. And if you are feeling all of this, that means that you are ready to break up with the chain. You are your ancestors wildest dreams come true. But you have to dare to escape the shell, and have that in-between moment where you are not quite sure what you are becoming, but you trust. You trust it's going to be a good thing. 

So, how do you teach yourself a new programming? The inner programming to take up space, to feel deserving, to believe in the inevitability of your success, and to believe that you can have this without becoming like the oppressor? 

I've struggled with these questions myself. 

So, this is my invitation. 

Don't just quietly quit. 

Don't just try to work on your side hustle. 

Do the work to understand why you can't stop overworking, why you shrink, why you doubt your worth. 

I've created a space for people to do that. 

And because I do not bind myself to anything other than "I think this is a fucking good idea", this space is a tiny, virtual representation of the inner workings of my brain. 

We got: 

• Reiss Motivation Profile® as the foundation to explore your inner compass 

• Tarot readings

• Themes inspired by astrology 

• A virtual community that you can access from your desktop or an app

• Gamification, because fuck it I love stickers as positive reinforcement tools 😍 

• A lot of opportunities to interact because you have no idea how alive I feel when I get to be a nerd and a witch at the same time. I love interpreting the reports, and I love to know where you're at in your journey. I love pulling tarot cards that make non-believers mad because THE ACCURACY IS SO ACCURATE. So, there are 1:1 meetings plus the virtual space where we get to talk about anything and everything. 

• A pricing that is reasonable because we are co-creating in this first round and I know that 3-months will not undo 20+ years of survival programming. 

This three-month experience we’re stepping into is not a magic fix. But it will light a fire. It will help you see yourself radically differently.

You will begin to move in the world without chasing approval, without chasing validation, without needing a title to prove your value.

There are ways to hold your ambition without feeding the machine that tries to reduce you.

This is the work. To shift how we see ourselves. This is how we create a different experience of life. We need to first remember that we are not chasing anything.

We are here to become more of who we already are.

We don’t need to prove our place. And we don’t need to break ourselves to honour where we came from.

We are allowed to rest. We are allowed to rise. We are allowed to do both.

I haven't even finished the sales page because I already sold 1 spot and I had to finish the plan so I could start working with my client!

I'm excited to share that I finished mapping out the modules and this is what we are doing within Unscripted. 

Unscripted: The Plan (so far)

Month 1: Personality as a Survival Mechanism

Unlearning the roles, rules, and survival patterns that trained you to mistrust yourself.

“What if all the ‘wrong’ things about you are just your real self trying to survive?”

We kick off by dismantling the idea that burnout, indecision, and self-sabotage are personal failures. They’re often signs of misalignment — between your real motivations and the life you’ve built around external expectations.

This month focuses on:

• Using your RMP® to spot false identities and survival strategies

• Reclaiming clarity, decisiveness, and self-trust

• Dropping the guilt and shame that keeps you apologizing for who you are

Month 2: Joy as Data

Reclaiming your right to create, express, and enjoy — without guilt or performance.

“You don’t need to ‘deserve’ joy. You just need to stop outsourcing it.”

This month is about reconnecting with the part of you that plays, dreams, and makes things just because it feels good. We’ll explore your relationship with pleasure, creativity, and the ways you might block or distort them.

Expect to:

• Explore desire without self-judgment or excess

• Build rituals of creativity, not just output

• Normalize the joy of being "too much"

• Rediscover your capacity to feel lit up from the inside out

We also run a two-week creative reset challenge— simple, low-stakes practices to rebuild trust with your creative self.

Month 3: Get Paid to Be Yourself

Bringing your whole self into the world and finding your public voice without self-betrayal.

“It’s not just about doing what you love. It’s about knowing you’re irreplaceable.”

We wrap with a deep exploration of public identity: career, visibility, reputation, and the pressure to perform a version of success that doesn't fit.

You’ll examine:

• What you’re really here to embody (not just do)

• How to survive toxic systems without losing yourself

• What it looks like to show up visibly, boldly, and on your own terms

• How to define legitimacy without chasing status

We end with a ritual to release outdated roles — and anchor into a public expression that’s true, sustainable, and yours.

Look, you should take advantage of the fact that I am too lazy to make this a cohort and that I have my reasons to be extremely generous in this first round (you have no idea the amount of work to promote a thing to convince everyone to join at the same time?! NO THANKS, I'd rather promote all day every day without the pressure of needing enough sign ups by a certain date) 

This is an ongoing enrolment, but this is a beta program so it's not open forever.

I am giving myself a period of 6 months to be as playful and experimental. 

I know that my current pricing is probably too low considering that I am doing a lot of 1:1 work. I know that the low-end pricing for something like this is $3-5K because I've been in plenty of coaching programs that offer less 1:1 and more group interactions starting at $2K.

But, I also know that I don't want to charge that pricing because it just doesn't make sense to me. I'm aiming to create something good and valuable and in integrity and I want to price it under $1K.

I just don't know what that looks like until I go through the experience, so in this first round I am going to offer EVERYTHING that I can think of and then I'm going to take a break and assess. 

Be an early adopter and take advantage of my maximalist, convoluted creation process. 

JOIN BEFORE JANUARY 5TH. That will give you enough time to go through the experience before I pause.

I care more about people showing up than your ability to pay me within 3 months.

P.S. If you need a longer payment plan, fill out this form and I will send you a custom payment link.